10 February 2015 – about 9 AM ET
Tuesday morning. Adding a whole new layer of diagnosis and treatment…. we have done big surgery, little surgery, radiation, oral chemo, IV chemo, traditional chemo, hormonal chemo, biological chemo, and more and again more and again. This morning we start the whole “inside the totally separate circulatory system of the cerebrospinal fluid system” thing with a spinal tap to see what cancer cells exactly are floating around, having fallen off those ridges of dural and leptomeningeal mets. I am pretty much a wreck about both the procedure (want to get stressed? Look up “lovenox and epidural black box” ) …. and the results. But everything is set for the kids and violin and meals and all…. I just have to get through it and await the results…. meanwhile I am still alive, I got up, and I have brand new hand knit lace prayer socks sent by a dear friend who understands panic….